torn..

I finally got what I wanted, but yet I'm not totally satisfied. He finally admitted he loves me..That moment is on the top 10 of best moments so far in my life. Things seem to be more complicated now..lucky me. When we are together it's the greatest, I've never been so sure about something in a while. Whatever happened to just living in the moment? I'm only 18, I'm not thinking about how long it is going to last with someone..forever is a word that doesn't mean much to me right now. Yeah, maybee in a few years from now. So I'm basically torn because when we aren't together i miss him like crazy, but yet we always seem to get into small arguments when we aren't together. The funny thing about this is we aren't a couple, like official and haven't been for almost 2 years. We have this unspoken agreement to eachother.The thing is I can't see my life without him right now...

Okay so I just needed to get that off my chest..I need a distraction from all of this.