updates.

So I haven't written in a while, been kind of busy.Here are some updates.

I think I'm in love but, you'll never hear me admit it because it's easier like that. I won't admit it to that person, but I think he already knows. It's the kind of love that just can't be. Time and time again he tells me we can't be anything more than what we are now. I don't know what to think anymore, he's right for the most part. It's pretty unhealthy though because I'm holding on to something that will never be more than what it is. Honestly, I wouldn't even know what to call it.For the longest time now, whenever things wouldn't work in a relationship for me as well as him we always came back to this.He's told me to let him go, but I don't have it in me to do that. Whatever I end up doing is going to hurt me in the end. If I let him go I'm only going to end up worse and heartbroken, which is never a good thing.I'm happy right now, but there's soo much I can take. -___-

School has been pretty hectic lately. My first semester is coming to a fast end. I've had quite a few papers due within a week, but I force myself to get them done. To focus on school seems to be the easiest thing to do.I figure if I get all my work done the semester will end faster, which it seems to be doing. Thank God.

Things with the fam are pretty decent lately, for the simple fact I don't see them that much. Of course when I have a paper due, my grandfather has to watch the football game on a Sunday, which totally blows. I really need to get the netbook I've been wanting for a while. It's going to make my life soo much easier.

That's pretty much it for now.
xoxo